so its almost thanks giving my favorite holiday of the year, the leaves change the wind blows and the fog settles, i only wish i felt normal i mean a year ago today i was a different person and i am happy and all but now im not sure if i changed for the good? i love my family my friends the love of my life and my newly born niece but inside something is stirring im not sure what it is, maybe its God i feel like i fell off a cliff when comes to him im distant i mean i still go to church and listen and learn but me and him are not communicating like we once did. camp was good to me i learned so much about myself and about him but i think its me not listening to him im not sure what to do but talk but i guess the stubborn side of me has taken over and i need to get back to myself hmmm life is funny isnt it the way you can change in only twelve months.....

hmmm

school life love and happy pills... it amazing am i crazy yes well according to my doctor im not but i am.. school has calmed down, while life has sped up, i think i am in a happy state where i can live in harmony...he loves me and i know that with him in my life and in his word i can accomplish all my dreams i just have to be patient it will be great in the end i just hope that from now until june i can remain sane lol

love is a crazy thing

i have figured out the meaning of my life.... wow sounds big but its true are you ready to hear it......i am suppose to unconditionally love everyone no matter what they have done and no matter what they will do...will it be hard? why yes...