so its almost thanks giving my favorite holiday of the year, the leaves change the wind blows and the fog settles, i only wish i felt normal i mean a year ago today i was a different person and i am happy and all but now im not sure if i changed for the good? i love my family my friends the love of my life and my newly born niece but inside something is stirring im not sure what it is, maybe its God i feel like i fell off a cliff when comes to him im distant i mean i still go to church and listen and learn but me and him are not communicating like we once did. camp was good to me i learned so much about myself and about him but i think its me not listening to him im not sure what to do but talk but i guess the stubborn side of me has taken over and i need to get back to myself hmmm life is funny isnt it the way you can change in only twelve months.....