Friday, November 13, 2009

the songs that taylor swift wrote that seem to fit so perfectly

Forever and Always

Once upon a time
I believe it was a Tuesday
When I caught your eye
We caught onto something
I hold onto the night
You looked me in the eye
And told me you loved me

Were you just kidding?

Cause it seems to me
This thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don’t feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened
Please tell me cause one second it was perfect
Now you’re halfway out the door

And I stare, at the phone
He still, hasn’t called
And you feel so low you can’t feel, nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said
Forever and always

Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said
Forever and always

Was I out of line? Did I say something way to honest?
Did you run and hide like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute
Now I’m not so sure

Breathe lyrics
Songwriters: Caillat, Colbie; Swift, Taylor Alison;

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

Tell Me Why lyrics
Songwriters: Rose, Liz; Swift, Taylor Alison;

I took a chance, I took a shot
And you might think I'm bulletproof but I'm not
You took a swing, I took it hard
And down here from the ground, I see who you are

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down

And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around

And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?

You could write a book on how
To ruin someone's perfect day
Well, I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say, oh

I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around

And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around

Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?

Why do you have to make me feel small
So you can feel whole inside?
Why do you have to put down my dreams
So you're the only thing on my mind?

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you want me then cut me down

I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I've got no one to believe in
You ask me for my love then you push me around

Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why? Why? Tell me, why?

I take a step back; let you go
I told you I'm not bulletproof
Now you know

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I’m cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing
And I’m comfortable

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I’m cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He can't see the smile I’m faking
and my heart's not breaking
Cause I’m not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now

I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
It's 2am and I’m cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you oh, oh

And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
Never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

Picture To Burn lyrics
Songwriters: Rose, Liz; Swift, Taylor Alison;

State the obvious
I didn’t get my perfect fantasy
I realized you love yourself
More that you could ever love me

So go and tell your friends
That I’m obsessive and crazy
That’s fine, I’ll tell mine
You’re gay and by the way

(You won't mind if I say, and by the way...)

I hate that stupid old pickup truck
You never let me drive
You’re a redneck, heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lying

So watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
As far as I’m concerned
You’re just another picture to burn

There’s no time for tears
I’m just sitting here planning my revenge
There’s nothing stopping me
From going out with all of your best friends

And if you come around
Saying sorry to me
My daddy’s going to show you
How sorry you’ll be

Cause I hate that stupid old pickup truck
You never let me drive
You’re a redneck, heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lying

And so watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
As far as I’m concerned
You’re just another picture to burn

And if you’re missing me
You better keep it to yourself
Cause coming back around here
Would be bad for your health

Cause I hate that stupid old pickup truck
You never let me drive
You’re a redneck, heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lying

So watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
In case you haven’t heard
I really, really hate that

Stupid old pickup truck
You never let me drive
You’re a redneck, heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lying

So watch me strike a match
On all my wasted time
As far as I’m concerned
You’re just another picture to burn

Burn, burn, burn, baby burn
Just another picture to burn
Baby burn

the life i live i wish it didn't seem like as stupid song lol but hey it describes it the best i couldn't do it better

forgive, try to forget, and move on.....

Saturday, September 26, 2009

yikes!

i wonder if anyone has been so mad that they cant think straight... hmm why does God decide to put me in such horrible situations. one day i think i am over him and the next i am so uncontrollably sad i want to die.. i feel death would be so much easier but will God take me away no and i have no idea why i beg and plead and yet i wake up each morning so morbidly depressed that i am not in heaven having a way better time.
i wonder how he feels if he beats him self up, i swear he doesnt have a heart because if he did he wouldnt have done this
i hope too and this sounds so mean but i hope he never gets married why is that because the girl that he would marry would be miserable till the day she either quit or died
i will be honest i have a regret in life that was meeting him and falling for him. sad i know but true one day this might change and i will be swept off my feet and will forget he ever existed at least i hope that happens one day
another truth: i wanted to end it to i was absolutely miserable but i prayed about it and chose no to because God can conquer all and would turn us around to become the people he wants us to be well mr tantraphol thought something else he thought there were better fish in the sea well he will be sadly mistaken cause no women will be able to give him what i gave him and i dont just mean my virginity
if he thinks i am only an ex girlfriend thats another sad mistake i am basically an ex wife the only thing we didnt have was a license
no my worry will be is when God does bring me my husband what do i tell him?

life goes on so when will mine?

i maybe rude and mean by writing and feeling this but i dont care one bit call me a bitch call me whatever but i do feel this way

Monday, September 21, 2009

Life and its changes

42 DAYS crazy huh life changed a lot when he chose to not be with me but hey whats the deal do i get sad yeah its strange not having that other half around... but now i have my Savior there with me, he protects me and comforts me in a way no man can. i feel like this was the right thing.. am i bitter a little do i want his stuff out of my house yes! but im not giving it back until he gives me back what i deserve.
i hope God is working through him the way he is in me. i dont live with regrets but i do regret letting Satan in a breaking up what God put together. i hope that through all of this we become better servants for Christ.

Monday, September 7, 2009

a new day and new chapter

well what can i say i havent been on this in forever now i have time.....
i think life is one big roller coaster up and down up and down
i am no longer engaged, thats new i wont have a may wedding and i wont have the last name tantraphol and i wont be moving out..this is a gigantic roller coaster
if i could think of one thing it is to apologize to all my friends for pushing them away all because some boy promised me forever and only gave me a ring and a crash landing.
hmmm when you get engaged doesnt that mean work through problems nope i guess not.... i was willing but he wasnt is that a normal thing? because i didnt think it was
i have a cute little dog now that i love and friends that are back
at least i know apologies are worth giving to some

Monday, April 27, 2009

fighting, making up and falling in love all over again

can you believe it i am engaged to a really great guy yay!!!
i think this is so amazing
im growing up ahhhh!!!
i hate college too i have decided i will be here foooooorrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeevvvvvvveer and all i want is to work in library but why does it have to be so difficult cant i just stay home and raise babies like amanda i swear i would be better at that than stupid college

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

febuary the month of love and laughter

some may say that valentines day is stupid but i love it
you know back in the day when everyone had to have a valentine in junior high and high school you bring your girl flowers and balloons to school or you bring your boy a special valentine and some give a kiss. i never had that i never dated i never had a boy friend in all 8 years that you are suppose to have one
i always wanted one i got lost in books where the girl always got the boy they truely wanted they fell in love and so on
i loved the way girls got to light up when there boyfriend brought them something special or the boys who turned bright red when he gives the girl he secretly likes a valentine it was cute it was precious
now that i have a love i want to experience all those teeny bopper things the cute smiles the butterflies but does my boy believe in the day of love, no so what am i suppose to do sit there it kills me.
i believe in the day of love i like the idea of a day you get to focus on the reason you fell in love in the first place the memories you can go through that will bring tears and laughter its beautiful i want it i need it, its a feeling i have longed for since i was young but i dont think i will ever get to experience it, i shed tears over and over he tells me that its childish but yet in relationships i am childish i dont understand why he doesnt he understand
hmmmm